sigh...

This is really the worst christmas i have ever had.Everything is so messy and confusing.I understand what did you say, but I'm sorry.I can't really make it because it is not easy for me.I wish that you'll have better life ,better friends and better girl in the coming 2010.and I hope that you're happy with the decision we'v made.Take care.my friend.Miss you

miserable.

Why did it happen..?How does it start?I have no idea about it at all.Why...My Christmas is really miserable!!

YEAH.

after the whole month of spm.my family and i went for a trip in RasaRia Resort.and i didn't know there is such a nice place in sabah.everything is great.the room, the beach, the watersports, the view and of course the dinner and the breakfast.too bad it was only 2 days.hahahahhaha..

老人院。。

昨天，姐约我一起参与教堂老人院的探访。这让我想起上一次， 我们一大班5C为了那份无聊moral project, 到那里探访，准备了礼物，节目，还有一大堆有的没的..
到了那里，搞笑的是，你会先看到一个很大很宽的池塘，里面住着可爱的青苔姐姐和虫虫大哥，静止的水里，当然也住着很多讨人爱的蚊虫宝宝啦， 想必是为了维护大自然生态吧？真是用心良苦啊。进去过后，妈的，我的心真是酸到了一个程度，那间狗屁老人院里住的人，到底是怎么生活的，如果是我，我应该已经疯了。你不会知道原来里面的生活是那么的‘美好’。到了那里抬头一望，就会看到有块向天空一样大的一个牌表，写着在里面住的老人的状况和种族 ，我是到那里才知道，我们华族几千年来所传承的美德有多好，华人多 ‘孝顺’呀！妈的，别说一半，大部分在那里住的老人都是华裔。亏这些炎黄子弟，还自称有多伟大，多有品德啊~根本是在睁大眼睛说瞎话~撇下这个不说，最恐怖的竟然是， 在里面，无论你正常与否，你还是和大家住在一起，换句话说，就是你和疯子住在一起，再换句话说，物以类聚，岂不是你也是被视为疯子的人？我真不懂那里是什么狗屁地方。换作是我，我应该也会在这个大同世界里，跟着一起疯吧？与这些疯子一起和睦共处的感觉应该不错吧？再来，在帮忙清理的当儿，你会发现，在那里的清洁指数不会超过十，我感谢里面还有一两个友族同胞在里面热心服务，照顾这些老人。
在清理完毕后，就到了呈现节目的时候了。知道他们是如何同志老人出来观赏节目的吗？可以用一个很好的例子来形容，那就是，工作人员拼命敲打钟铃，然后老人们就像僵尸一般的慢慢从自己的地方爬出。想象空间很大吧？我们准备了一些节目，唱歌表演是必然的，而就是在这个时候，我差点崩溃了。在我们唱歌的同时，我看到他们一个个把手举起，放在耳朵旁，起初我以为他们不想听还是不喜欢，问了院长才知道，这是他们自制的收音方式，他们是听不到，想试着用手来助听，说是把手置在耳朵两旁是会帮助收音，才能听得见。。在那一刻，心真的有一阵酸痛。心想，他们现在的心情到底是怎么样的。院长告诉我，在这里他们唯一的娱乐，就是那些来探访他们的人，只有在这种时候，他们才会从自己的房间里出来，其他时间应该都是在床上度过吧？好过分哦。那里的环境又不是说很好，肮肮脏脏的，很难过吧？
对于这样的事，我心里抱着一种莫名的心酸，养我们的，就算再怎么不好，也不可以这样吧？
我发誓，我绝不会这样对待我的父母，身为华人子弟，也应该很明白，这些反哺的需要吧？

happy new year!

Happy new year to everyone..i'm so happy that it is holiday now..but i'm still worry about my school chinese new year celebration that is held by my chinese association..i am in the rush because we have to present on 6th of Feb..11 days from now..but it is holiday..how do i manage to plan and practise for all the performance in time?plus..there is a new pork is leading all of us..that's why everything mess up..she ah..such a monster..just know how to scold the students by using her duckling mouth..goodness..wish me luck to have good leadership to be a president..and the show can be held successfully!!

time to leave..

this is the sixth day i've came back from KL..it's time to return to my boring life..school teachers are getting older and older..rules are getting more and more..all my friends are getting prettier and fatter..and it makes me think of..i'm 17 already!!oh my goodness..the time passed so fast until i didn't realize that it's time for me to think about my future..the time i went toKL,i saw many things that i couldn't believe..the school i went to, is a place for teenagers to achieve their dreams to become stars..i mean singers,artists n etc..i'm shocked because all of the students there are talented..they know how to sing,dance,compose,play music instruments,and so on..but i don't understand why are they still here and can't achieve their wonderful dreams..and then..now i know..it's not easy to 'survive' in it..some of the 'boss' will not care whether they are talented or not..instead,the 'face' are more important than the talent..their look will decide their next step..and chinese used to say the 'luck'..it will come when it's time..i always believe in this..it will come..you don't have to search for it..the more you want it,the more you can't get it..my sister is a pretty who loves to sing since she was 4 years old..she has been working very hard in her singing skills,piano playing,etc..she always perform on the stage to build up her popularity..guess what..she got in the ASQ when she was 19..after the contest is ended,she went to the music school that she wanted..and now..she's coming back for 'LCCI'..a study of accountancy..what is the reason?i guess all of you know it..isn't it?